i have always known that the things i want to accomplish in life would be in vain because the path that leads to my desires will change me into something i would despise. thats why ive always sat around. but now im forced to do something. if i dont, ill never get my children back, and even if i did, i couldnt provide for them. so now i have a job, and in a few months, i will be in a situation financially to do what i want. school, opening a pc store, the possibilities are endless. my solution is to figure out a way to not let those things that would change me, affect me. the future looks bright if i can make it through the gauntlet. thats my status update.